Day 1 with Dr. Pee was the day I got to know I was under Dr. Pee. Meeting was 530pm.
Entered the classroom with the other 2 girls as RP1 student of hers. She was gonna have class at 6pm, so within that 30mins was our 1st brief meeting.
Honestly, it wasn't brief at all. While we wait for her to straighten up her students, I had a flashback of how I was her student in her class. Strict like her ways as usual, with her no mercy vocabs. Either you're in our you're out. No in between. No Buts.
Finally she called to us to the back of the class. There we sat and started our briefing. It wasn't brief briefing altho it only lasted 35-40mins? She stated her rules & everything she want Clearly. We're left with no place for mistakes.
How can it be? ...that I'm in this situation?? ....I still can't get Myself out of this trance, trauma, shock, whatever it is. She went on questioning us. And then, she started throwing/giving us her thoughts & ideas. She wants us to do further reading.
I think it has been a while since I was last under her. Although I know, it wasn't too long ago, just earlier this year, I was her student in the class. Now, things have change. The cards have changed. No more child's play.
Still in Shock on the day of our 1st encounter, she hyper-fed us with ideas, I suffered badly from indigestion. Indigestion of her ways & methods. It's like a sudden change of Diet Plan. Sudden Restrictions. Just, Sudden.
As a result of My Indigestion, and this cruel world of Professional Fishermen & Fisherwomen, I can only help Myself by feeding Myself with the Produce I make with My Biological Parts. And since everything's external, I've to be prepare to receive external humiliations, pain, risks etc. I've to be mentally strong & be prepared to move into a Vegetarian Diet.
My next meeting with Dr. Pee will be tomorrow 11am. I asked for this meeting. Because I need to tell her that I'm blur. I don't understand what she wanted because during the 1st day of the meeting, it was too much for me to digest. And I'm prepared to receive lots of humiliations tomorrow. Pray that I have skin thick enough to withstand My Emotions.
