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S.O.S. Report!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was suppose to message doctor to get meet up with her, as promised with My Colleague, 4 days ago....but I didn't, up until yesterday, 10th April, I sms doctor. Honestly, I didn't expect for doctor to reply my sms since after My Colleague had sms, doctor didn't reply her. So, simply and randomly, I typed an sms and clicked "send".

On the 10th April, almost 3 hours after I'd sent that sms, I RECEIVED A REPLY!

The doctor asked if I had class tomorrow, which is Monday, 11th April, and I replied her that I'm free. And I asked where and when I should meet her? However, she replied me by asking for when I'm gonna have classes......and so, I sms her my timetable and said my thanks for her time.

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT AM I GONNA DO?????

NOW, 11th April, 8.50am, I RECEIVED another sms from her ASKING FOR MY CGPA!!!!!!!!!!!!
=S ..................Frankly speaking, I'm REALLY EMBARRASSED for having such cgpa!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I may have the digits, but it's just MERE DIGITS without SUBSTANTIAL CONTENTS SUPPORT!!!!!

Finally, she replied me again after I've sms her my cgpa results, saying that she would like me to PRESENT MY RESEARCH TOPIC TO HER, TOMORROW (12th April), 10am, and to meet her at the staffroom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I already had AN INSOMNIA NIGHT because I knew, after I've sent the sms to ask for a meeting, I had to had My Lab Request Form FILLED! .................yesterday, I started filling up My Lab Request Form and seriously, IT WAS A HEADACHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've to count and estimate the materials I'm going to use, methods etc!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TT.TT

AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My LAST MINUTE ARRANGED PRESENTATION is KILLING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Which ALSO MEANS, today, I've to prepare Myself, READ UP A to Z, inside out and present My Research Proposal like I'm The MASTER of My Research!

Oh, GOD! PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I guess tonight will be another Sleepless, Worried Night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm going to uni later, around 11am, to verify my materials with lab personnels......and then, when I'm back home, I think I should get some sleep and start preparing myself by tonight!

TT.TT

..........at times like this, I wish I had someone beside for me to seek refuge...............

T.T

What a harsh world this is for Me.......What a LIFE I'm having now.............

I HATE PRESENTATIONS. I hate FORMAL presentations. I hate formal presentations with someone of THAT SUPERIOR to me.........because the fact of her cert is already like a threat to me.

But most important of all, I hate myself for being SO INCOMPETENT!!!!!!!!!

I watched SAW 2004, yesterday, and the Mastermind behind the chain series of serial murder cases was like a PSYCHOPATH Teacher to those Victims! .......teaching his victims to VALUE THEIR LIFE in a VERY SCARY WAY, to appreciate Life. For Me, I think my life is already like SAW. But, if I were to choose between a SAW-like teacher and The Doctor, I better admit I'm thankful I had The Doctor instead of SAW-like teacher!

..............but still, WHY WHY WHY on EARTH I put her name down in THAT FORM????

I had, in a way, "request" this upon myself................none to blame, except..........me, myself.